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Phycodurus-8

My Dear Analis,

I am laying on my bed attempting to calm down after a very trying day.  The morning started very productive and I was able to complete my first full color rendition of the Anomaly.  Unfortunately that was the end of my endeavors for today.  As I was heading to the observation deck for the midday meal all the bells and whistles on board the ship started to sound.  You can imagine my panic as we are drilled of the dangers that can arise on a deep space station from the moment we step onboard.  I changed my direction immediately and headed toward the muster point assigned to me.  Most of the lab personnel were already gather there and we were quickly directed to the emergency shelter of the station.  It turned out that a series of solar flares were detected originating from Alpha Centauri B. In the past this has caused unexplained responses from the area of space around the Anomaly. As a precaution the station places all non-essential  personnel in extra shielded areas of the station during the event. Needless to say it was not a pleasant afternoon sitting with thirty fidgeting  scientist and technicians in a twelve by twelve meter room for six hours. All of which were complaining about the necessity of the quarantine since they all wanted to be in their lab environments to study the Anomaly during the event. I gathered from the various conversations that the flares were not an uncommon occurrence and many of the longer residence here were questioning the need for such precautions.  It seems their instruments had not picked up any abnormal readings from the Anomaly during the past flares and they were convinced there is something going on that is not being shared outside of official channels. We were finally allowed to exit the shielded area late in the evening and I only had a few minutes to check the equipment for damage before returning to my quarters.  I did not discover any issues with the instruments  but I did notice some strange readings from the optical enhancement unit and the wave unit. They showed significant fluctuations during the alleged times of the solar flares. As this could also be due to the heightened tensions on board during the emergency conditions,  I am not convinced they are detections from the Anomaly.  I still cannot rule out this possibility as no other lab has this type of equipment on board. I have marked all this data with special notations so you can analyze them at a later time.  When I arrive on New London I will contact the meteorology department so they can alert me of any future solar activity.  That way I can send you a schedule for future reference to compare the current data with those from future occurrences.

I now have three composite drawings of the Anomaly along with the full color piece completed today.  I have decided to leave at least one of these composites on the space station for you.  I have not decided which one yet as they all include important but different aspects.  I will know which one will be best for your research before I leave.  I have reluctantly found it necessary to revert to my Hermetics practice of meditation over the last few days. I am no longer a devote follower of the Theorem and I found this a bit hypocritical even though it has turn out to be helpful. As the days have ticked by my emotional instability has decreased and I can now work with a clear purpose.  I was so full of sensory overload when I first arrived that I was worried it would not be possible to use my time here productively.  I will likely not get another chance to study the Anomaly in this type of environment again so I am happy my mental acuity has stabilized.  I can still feel the storm coming and I catch myself standing at the observation window expecting to hear the sound of thunder.  It never comes but the view of the Anomaly brings me back to the present.  I am not sure if it is the renewal of my meditation ritual or the influence from the Anomaly. I am more inclined to give the Anomaly credit. I feel that it is a focal point grounding me  in my own skin.  Allowing me to live in the moment and not slip forward or backward through time.  This is a new thing for me as you know.  I can be so easily distracted by the little things. Regret and disappointments from the past and worry over the future have always flavored my craft. That was what drew me to the Hermetalists in the first place.  The response I get from the Anomaly is altogether different than my experience with the faith.  It is not the mesmerizing reaction caused by the rolling formation of clouds or the incoming waves on the beach.  These are the tactics used for my previous meditation practice.  The Anomaly focus my attention instead of diverting it.  I spent six hours yesterday and four hours today on the color image and my mind was centered completely on my work.  Not a good thing for my digestion as I forgot to eat but very beneficial for my art.  It is by far the most accurate depiction of the Array I have completed.  I begin to understand the concept of pre-recognition that has plagued the artist and scientists on Earth.  All of us had our first view of the Anomaly from photos and  research originating from Earth.  We already had predetermined images in our brains of how the Anomaly looked from those depictions.  Yesterday I concentrated on seeing the phenomenon for the first time without any preconceived ideas of what I should be seeing.  I determined that I was missing something several days ago as I was working on a piece of equipment on the far side of the lab from the observation window.  I caught a view of the Anomaly from the corner of my eye and there appeared to be additional appendices that were not there when i turned back to the window and looked at the view full on.  I immediately looked back at my previous work and I realized how distorted they are compared to what I see now.  I wonder if the readings from the equipment will reflect these differences also.  I spent yesterday and today trying to capture the true image of the Anomaly. I have compared my current work with the last few painting I completed on Earth.  They are worlds apart in color and complexity.  Seen from my current perspective the internal structure of the Anomaly is similar to the working of a clock.  I can see rhythmic pulses and rotating components within the core of the array.  The appendixes seem to flow and ripple with unseen wave currents. On Earth it was like I was studying a still life and now the live model has arrived in the studio.  

I see that I have begun to ramble.  That is a sure sign that it is time for sleep.  I have scanned the completed color rendition with this letter so you can view it while reading my description.   It is also available on the lab archives along with the rest of my work completed here.

Know that I think of you everyday.

Love

Victoria